look how soulless my eyes look //

Sighs, things are really starting to give me a headache these days.
School is another headache, but I'm really glad I have this game to take my mind off all that's going on. Mid terms are coming up , and I'm feeling more anxious because this year I'm going to try and sell my product through another venue and also my artistic product in a artisan market up in Santa Barbara.
As for personal life, I made friends :D
I'm very socially retarded which is why I play games online instead of hosting lavish who-dun-it parties, which I love, and making friends that I have things in common with is like a dream come true. We're going to Anime Expo and hoping to meet up, my Shampoo cosplay is done just need to fix the hair buns and make the accessories. Also I'm thinking of getting Limecrime red eyeshadow because of the reflective sparkle effect, and it will photograph better.

Back to SWTOR, I think I get how gearing works now.
thanks to my guild mates I've been working on balancing my  Surge and Crit, my alac is usually high, but on my op it was relatively low. I managed to get it up to 6.2, and my crit to something like 222, and my surge is at 390, I think....idk I need to look up these numbers lol
So yeah, what I have left in this work is something like fixing my underworld set and replacing those enhancements with Arkanian ones. I want to buy the Dread Forged relics, but omg, mats +500k is the norm to buy one, idk if I'm ever gonna be that rich >:

I also found this site, SWTORista, which is a fashion based site, (like omg it was made for me:DDD )
and they post outfits that are super glam. I think I might submit an outfit, but you know how I hate being judged ///sighs...

Yeah, I have made some decisions with my swtor life. If something didn't happen by this summer, I would change. And that something is confirmed to never happening...ever. It makes my heart hurt, but oh well, there's a quote somewhere that explains it all, so it's gonna be okay. Thing is it doesn't seem like its gonna be okay anytime soon so, maybe I should move on, by drastically moving on, is that better? I want to join a large guild where I can contribute and see a result. I feel like I'm climbing a wall that keep growing. I wanna be happy in game, and no cling to strange emotions that develop inside of me against my will, and when that happens I know it's time to move on, because I'm like allergic to happy endings, just another great thing about being me. Maybe  I can make a guild with female players only? Sighs, but ppl lie,...so maybe no lol
There's a guild called "mean girls" lol //shedoesn'tevengohere!

So here's my plan.
I want to join the Ootini Knights, however, I'm nervous about the quiz because I'm not good at tracking details in my mind. Which is why I think I'm autistic, or retarded idk... I am slow at certain things.
I love listening to their podcasts and I feel like our mindsets are similar in playing, they raid casually and are very social, kinda like me. I love my current guild though, but if it wasn't for that stuff happening I wouldn't consider this, I think it's easier to fade out gradually, right?
I want a fresh start, I guess, something to consider.

Screenshot time!

I think I would be an awesome addition to the vendors. I would sell pink everything.
Pink stims, pink medpacks, pink sparkles, pink armors, pink companion customizations lol

 

I got a Cavern Varactyl for 1.5mil, cheap :DD

TFB pug, though I had to leave past weekly, we took too long and I had a movie to see.

OMG a pink stormtrooper :DDD well kinda lol

Rah Rah Rah!! I wonder who decorates DF, I mean... look at that décor, this would be an awesome Industrial club, bring on the Skinny Puppy!

 

well das it :3

Hi hi hi~!!

I guess you're wondering why I havent been posting, truth be told, I had midterms and a project and half my team dropped this econ class and im like "wtf bitches?" and yeah, that happened.
Sighs...when will I learn to speak up and tell people I dont wanna work with them?
Too meek, too meek.

Anyways yeah.
I thinkI'm doing good balancing school, writing , and SWTOR.
I got this new thing where I'm on twitter more too, so yeah.

Well im too tired right now to type so here some screenies to share my past weeks.

 

mystique!

times are so hard we gotta eat what we kill

night~~

I'm not saying that it's dumb to pvp on a pve server, I know a lot of people have those feelings and thoughts and want nothing to do with pvp
but the bottom line is that it's plain fun :DD

I've liked pvp since I discovered it, but there's also things I don't like about it.

For example them hax!!
im just trying to kill the opposing faction, I use tactics and predictions of where certain targets will end up, like every player I use that to my advantage and try to use it to win, and aid my own faction to win, if I lose it's because I made a mistake somewhere, or we could have been better coordinated, or geared. However when we lose because someone in the opposing faction thinks it's fair to use a speed hack that allows them to follow me past a stealth out half way across the map in a blink of an eye, that's just not fair. I just repswaned and you're here!? wtf? that isn't fair, and everyone should report these people even if they are in your group, it just takes the fun element out of these matches.
If you suck, practice, dummy.


now that we're past that, another note, rewards for season one :DDD

I know I'm not getting these, but good for the people that are getting them, you can check out the leader boards on the swtor website and see where your standing is, and if you are in the 1% of hardcore pvp players you get a special rancor mount :D
now people (corelian run radio) are really bitching about how it's not fair to everyone that wants one. How is it not fair? It's like when people were bitching about Treek, we immidiately got her on the cartel market so that was stupid, but here is an exclusive mount hat really feels like a reward, because in this game all cool items are eventually stamped for a price in the cartel market and have no significant value amongst your peers. I know it may take me forever to get a black/purple/golde detailed rancor, I love the mount but really, I have a lot of mounts, I'm not gonna rage quit because I can't get one mount. Also people who get this mount DESERVE IT! get over it. I like the idea that there can be a distinction of superb players, I'm trying to be at least decent and working to be a great pvp healer, but I have long ways to go before I can join that 1%, which may expand because these rewards are really drawing people in lol

There really are podcasts out there that I enjoy listening to, and Corelian run radio is not one of them, they just have no bigger picture concept, and the host is always yelling, I like the co-hosts though, the show would be better if it had a broader view of the game, Ootini is also like this, with first person opinions, but they are open minded people who really go back and forward with their opinions not just stick to one and wont shut up about it. Some people may like that but I don't. now if you want to listen to a pristine podcast with learned opinions I suggest the Unnamed SWTOR Podcast.

Now I started school and I think I have around two nights or one night one day to play swtor, I'm so tired all the time, it's hard to keep focus on swtor anymore.
Today I managed to do 2 dailies, section X and Black Hole, I like these because they are easy and give decent credits, if I had the time I'd do more solo ranked today but I really dont, even as we speak I must to be working on homework. sighs, I'd share that with you but idk, it's a little hard to be a fashion student and still be a major nerd, my fashion vision really is different, not what they would call "modern love" fashion lol

yeah, I will share some sketches once I visalize the fabrics, but I want to do a series of sketches inspired by star wars, original designs, I think I wanna do that, dress video game characters, I think I'd love that. lol////

anyways, I also managed to do some guild flashpoint on Imperial side, our Republic side needs major love! If you want a guild that you can help to shape and grow, if you are passionate about this game please consider joining us at Imperial Bane, we really need members who want to form an ops progression group or a weekly ops group, flashpoints, and are helpful and humble enough to help lowbies  or just a great hangout lol, Please send me a pst or a mail on harbringer sever @ Gerai and we shall become aquainted :D
I welcome fellow nerds who are looking to make new friends, and can really be the life of the party, or will help to rebuild this guild with me. It's mostly older ppl 30+, but there's some younger ppl on as well, in cause you are wondering I'm 24, and yes I'm a girl with a blaster lol
Well if you feel we are like minded and you'd like to come play with us, do send me a pst, I welcome fresh blood :3 not literally lol


now picture time :DD
 Guild EV HM Run: satisfactory++

 My BH, Powertech: Ji-sun finally got to Voss lol (I like the Gurian type mounts in case you havent noticed)

This usually happens when I'm not paying attention, sorry ppl >:

I thought I had more for this/last week, oh well.

I'll try to make these weekly, but no promises.
take care :3

hehehehe, sorry for the cheesy puns there (mmmm cheese)

but yes, the rakghoul virus has spread to Alderaan and random Zombie Infected people were popping about and trying to tear our flesh out...right? That's what the virus does? It turns people in zombies, so i I guess they want da flesh?

We may never know, correction! I may never know but the truth is out there if you care to...you know, see it.

So this was Infection at stage 2, before you basically blow up and like you know, infected everything within a 5 meter radius. The event was kinda boring though, well it wasn't for me, I hated the tunels and it just seemed like a crazy maze of madness, yeah, I didn't even try to finish the dailies lol
I beat the Eyeless boss once and that was enough fun for me, still have canisters of rakghoul ..dna? which is the currency to buy stuff, kinda like the helixes for the Gree Events. Now people everywere were complaining about the "re-use" event, but after all the complaning these same people changed their tune. Also hate to be the bearer of bad news, but I really hate all these old players on noob planets going on and on about how "I remember before they nerfed the slicing," or "I was here since launch, I am superior lol" ughh, I dislike these type of players more than the actual noobs. No one cares how long you're been here, spefs, since I don't even know you, no fascination there, I've been here since...almost a year in may, anyways, get over yourselves, no one cares that you've played every class and are now a major douche.

Speaking of douches, stop stealing my missions objectives like an evil ninja. Shit will respawn yes, but I just killed like 15 guys and you just ran over and took it and then ran away like a little school boy bitch that can't fight his own battles. And yes, im being sexist, I don't think a girl would be such a dick. so suck on that.

Toon Update:

 

I got my Shadow to lvl 39 (yay almost 45) to Hoth, its a frozen wasteland so I stopped playing as soon as I got there lol 

 

Cosminna, my Imperial Agent, Operative: is lvl 39, or 40, on Belsavis, got to lvl her up a lot this week/last week, which is great because I really havent had a chance to be on the imp side in a very long long time, glad to have done a few fps and really got into my class story,  really glad I  changed her hair, it matches my new mount :3

I don't think I took a screenie of it, but  it's that darn Gurian Rose 

 

got it unlocked on all my toons, leave a very pretty pink streak like the lightning or the emerald versions, which I also have...hmm...should I get the royale as well? Just to have them all?

There is a new update 2.6, really have some changes, including that now the Relaxed Vestments outfit now have his covered shirt and does not expose skin anymore, BUMMER.

Few glitches that came with it as well see below, but also fun, a new flashpoint!

I keep qeuing but have yet to get it, hoping to get it done tonight though, it is a tactical fp

not sure what that means though, but it's role and lvl neutral, something's gotta give,right?

 closing thoughts:

2.6 Patch really fucked me over. My skill points were reset, don't exactly know why, 

I know that they nerfed the Flyby or Orbital stike, or ops and scoundrels, so now it's not a much killer

but I did hear that cooldown has been reduced, still, it came in handy as heals.

Stealthing out now does not drop entire aggro. There are bugs with my shadow and or strealthers

and aggro that could easily be dropped is picked right back up after stealthing out, this sometimes happens when you have a debuff, but even without it it will not drop aggro, it's buging me.

Also, my guild Imperial Bane (Harbringer), is currently recruiting members of all lvls, we preffer nerds, but we will take others as well. We want a more sociable atmosphere, and more ops as well as well more guild events in general, really looking for fun and focused players to make our guild a happier place.