look how soulless my eyes look //
Sighs, things are really starting to give me a headache these days.
School is another headache, but I'm really glad I have this game to take my mind off all that's going on. Mid terms are coming up , and I'm feeling more anxious because this year I'm going to try and sell my product through another venue and also my artistic product in a artisan market up in Santa Barbara.
As for personal life, I made friends :D
I'm very socially retarded which is why I play games online instead of hosting lavish who-dun-it parties, which I love, and making friends that I have things in common with is like a dream come true. We're going to Anime Expo and hoping to meet up, my Shampoo cosplay is done just need to fix the hair buns and make the accessories. Also I'm thinking of getting Limecrime red eyeshadow because of the reflective sparkle effect, and it will photograph better.
Back to SWTOR, I think I get how gearing works now.
thanks to my guild mates I've been working on balancing my Surge and Crit, my alac is usually high, but on my op it was relatively low. I managed to get it up to 6.2, and my crit to something like 222, and my surge is at 390, I think....idk I need to look up these numbers lol
So yeah, what I have left in this work is something like fixing my underworld set and replacing those enhancements with Arkanian ones. I want to buy the Dread Forged relics, but omg, mats +500k is the norm to buy one, idk if I'm ever gonna be that rich >:
I also found this site, SWTORista, which is a fashion based site, (like omg it was made for me:DDD )
and they post outfits that are super glam. I think I might submit an outfit, but you know how I hate being judged ///sighs...
Yeah, I have made some decisions with my swtor life. If something didn't happen by this summer, I would change. And that something is confirmed to never happening...ever. It makes my heart hurt, but oh well, there's a quote somewhere that explains it all, so it's gonna be okay. Thing is it doesn't seem like its gonna be okay anytime soon so, maybe I should move on, by drastically moving on, is that better? I want to join a large guild where I can contribute and see a result. I feel like I'm climbing a wall that keep growing. I wanna be happy in game, and no cling to strange emotions that develop inside of me against my will, and when that happens I know it's time to move on, because I'm like allergic to happy endings, just another great thing about being me. Maybe I can make a guild with female players only? Sighs, but ppl lie,...so maybe no lol
There's a guild called "mean girls" lol //shedoesn'tevengohere!
So here's my plan.
I want to join the Ootini Knights, however, I'm nervous about the quiz because I'm not good at tracking details in my mind. Which is why I think I'm autistic, or retarded idk... I am slow at certain things.
I love listening to their podcasts and I feel like our mindsets are similar in playing, they raid casually and are very social, kinda like me. I love my current guild though, but if it wasn't for that stuff happening I wouldn't consider this, I think it's easier to fade out gradually, right?
I want a fresh start, I guess, something to consider.
Screenshot time!
I think I would be an awesome addition to the vendors. I would sell pink everything.
Pink stims, pink medpacks, pink sparkles, pink armors, pink companion customizations lol
I got a Cavern Varactyl for 1.5mil, cheap :DD
TFB pug, though I had to leave past weekly, we took too long and I had a movie to see.
OMG a pink stormtrooper :DDD well kinda lol
Rah Rah Rah!! I wonder who decorates DF, I mean... look at that décor, this would be an awesome Industrial club, bring on the Skinny Puppy!
well das it :3
