I have been  away from SWTOR for a few days.
Honestly, I'm running through a burn of the game, and cannot even bring myself to be on for more than a few minutes.
Something is eating at me, and I think it's that feeling I had of running cross country like Forest Gump, I don't like routine sometimes, though I'm complacent to live through it like a robot on autopilot, and before I know it I begin to twitch and ache and hate it.

I love this game but sometimes I need to return to the real world and live my life.

I am not like a lot of people, I am shy, and reclusive, and hate to be in places I do not feel comfortable.

In anycase, Tomorrow's (Today?) is Thanksgiving Day, AKA Turkey Day, AKA Pre-Black Friday, AKA Dysfunctional Family Feast Day.

I've spent all day baking, it's my bit of the feast to provide: Meaty Turnovers, Carrot Cake cupcakes, a spaghetti casserole, and a pumpkin pie graciously provided by Costco and the good people of Paypal, which in other words means I'm buying at Costco with my Paypal card because baking one at this point in time would undoubtedly drive me insane.

I'm also going to be bracing the crowds of the Thurdays Pre-Back friday sales, I kind of hate myself for it, but I really need a new lap top, and my sister is working so I'm getting her a few things as well, We didn't go the last two years so I don't entirely feel sleazy over it. I'm more worried about my leg though, I saw the doctor he thinks I might have a hair fraction if its in the middle of my joint/bone, he thinks it's a muscle tention but the way I described it he thinks is the hair fraction.  Getting an X-Ray before I head over to Mexico, Oh yeah, i'm going to Mexico, awesome.
I just hope we dont get out heads chopped off on our way there, because we will be taking  A LOT of stuff over, so Flying is out of the question. Lol Just imagining the bill for the boxs upon boxes of gifts gives me goosebumps lol.

Anyways, I love our road trips I just hate that it's just gonna be me, my brother and sister will be here, and I will be over there, kinda of alone because I never really connected with any of my cousins, I'm 100% weird to all of them, so I will probably be on swtor less anyways, lots of loud parties and lots of beer, I don't like beer though, so I will be taking reading material.

I'll probably be taking this Lappy though, in case we are robbed or whatever, my new one will stay here safely here.

Sighs.... I feel so bad about shopping tomorrow, but really, I kinda need it, sorry people, but this one has made plans, too late to back out now.



In Swtor related news,
I want to lead more operations, it's kinda fun bossing people around //muahahaha//
I just wish I was a better player, maybe my lag problems will go away with better lappy, or maybe it will be a bigger nightmare, idk yet.

I'm focusing on finishing my Shadow, but god, it's boring lol
I need to lvl up by 4 to finish my first chapter, sighs....I wish I could go into the game to make it go faster but the laaaaaaaaaaaaaaag lol

ughhhhh God help me.

oh im sorry, maybe the force be with me//lol

Anyways yeah, also been kinda lonely, hmmm, I need to make more friends in game, really hate running everything alone.

Objective: Dread Palace End/ Dread Fortress.

sometimes I wonder, "What am I doing here, running across the snowy grass of Aldeeran?" I should be sewing or writing or running irl, which I havent done much lately since the crash, and can't really since my leg starts to hurt like crazy, but...I still want to run, like really run like I used to not the sad type of running I do now, I wish I could go back in time and not have that crash because it's one of those things that really made me feel free, and now it's starting to affect my life even more than it used to.

Anyways, returning to SWTOR, I hate Aldeeran //madness
I used to really like it, but since my lappy problems have gone from bad to this is not the gamecard you are looking for, I can't seem to be bothered running my lower toons CM because of the lag on the noob planets. I have a soft spot for free-2-play players because I was one myself once, I thought I test out the game see how much it worked for me, and a lot of people play and quit and don't make it out of Taris, I think that is where a lot of f2p go to die, it is a jungle nightmare, and HUGE. Taris can crush souls if you have to run everywhere like I used to, and wondering why the speeder man didnt serve my kind, it was kinda racist//hmpf!

I think I subbed after a guy invited me to join a guild, and they were super nice to me, <Red Riffle Regiment> I still have a soft spot for that guild, but after a while it succumbed to what all guilds eventually succumb to, lack to activity it was just me and three others at a time, not speaking though I tried lol, and I didn't have GB access, and there were a lot of items I could have used, I to this day have no idea how I stayed so long after the change happened but after I became active with another member he told me that we were gonna break off and do our own guild, with GB and everything, well I left them have Pie and was one of the founder's of the new guild, <Brotherhood at Arms> I wanted a clever name like Jawa Army or Ewok Pride Parade, something clever and star wars related. I wasn't a fan of the guild, specially because not even I had  GB acesss :/
This made me wonder why if I have things to give and things I need am willing to give the guild, why am I cut off? I wasn't about to be part of another Red Riffle type of guild, so I quit my main and went out wondering if there were any good guilds out there, so I went to the place where aldeeran things could go, well ran, the fleet. Home to trolls and racists and perverts who love to clutter up the chat, along with the rest of us normal people who are just trying to enjoy the game. I guess the force was with me because that's how I found <Imperial Bane> bunch of characters too, I never seen a guild that active and helpful, so I kinda fell in love with it, I always try to be active so I guess  I was from the start, but once I started lvling i got intimidated lol
Actually I think now that the GM to our sister guild recruited me, thought he was a girl too, but then again I kinda wish everyone was a girl, then I wouldn't have to feel as alienated on a game lol
Well this was gonna be about how I changed PIeione's hair color **see picture above**, and it ended up being about how I found my guild lol

I guess the message I wanna send is, don't conform yourself with a guild just because you joined it first, I respect everyone's decision to leave if you are not happy in our guild, but from my perspective, if the guild does nothing for you like it was doing for me, go out and meet a better one, give lots of them a chance and make up your mind when you are ready, fell free to make changes.

Of course you can join a guild for pure XP alone, no shame in that, I recommend <Random Guild for XP> because every time I see that name I crack up lol

Well Today I am running around Hoth after my dailies run to make sure I know where all the nests are, doing Tauntaun Mount hunting...for domestication data, yeah it's kinda long lol

Im kind of nervous about running events, specially ops or fps, but I guess it's time to make changes in that as well, hopefully people will get the way I operate, and itwill work out.

Till next time...

Lol this is why is was lagging so bad on Belsavis yesterday, I went invisible for a full 30 mins lol

Anyways, I made two new alts today

Aclyone - Jed Counsular, Light Green T'wilek, going to spec him as a Sage.
Taygeta - Trooper, Biege Cathar, going to spec her as a Vanguard.

 Notice a pattern? lol
I guess these names were purged because last time I wanted them they were taken.

Anyways the pattern in the name to my alts, was originally going to be based on the Pleiades star cluster. I'm really into Astrology, and star charting, and this is my favorite celestial body.
This is where the Pie's come from lol
In other mmo's when you capitalize the i, it will look like an L, so PIeiades, would show up as looking like Pleiades, however these names were taken, so oh well//sadness

Pleione is another star, the their stars are called, Maia, Asterope, Merope, Electra and Atlas.
I like the names I have for my alts right now, except maybe for Telracs, which I might change into Maia, or Electra with specs on them :3

Anyways I'm having fun with my new alts,so I will make this short.



 Bought a new pack today, got a wierd faced new pet lol
looks like its from makeb, I would love the balloon though, its so pretty //

Hello everyone, and welcome to my blog~!

I remember the first time I heard of the Old Republic, I was at wondercon and I was debating about which costume I wanted to learn how to make at a workshop, I liked the classic, elegant beige look of the Jedi, more for my brother, whom was actually in  a school club that had 'real' lightsaber battles on campus, it was funny seeing him walk around with a toy lightsaber on his belt but it was also kinda cool lol.

However, as much as I loved the Jedi, beige has never been my color, then there was the Smuggler type they were showing us and I know the inner Han Solo in me wanted to learn this.
While I was admiring the holster someone asked me if I was in on the battle, when I asked what they meant they gave me a little flyer that had a bunch of star wars stuff on it, and circled the big mmo bit on it, "The Old Republic just went free to play you should join up and see how you like it."  A little creeped out by unintentional interaction but it seemed interesting, until now my experience with mmo's hasn't been a pleasant one, I've been playing for years on a site called gaiaonline.com, and it wasn't a real mmo so to speak, it was like....a failed attempt at an mmo, but it was really fun and I made a lot of friends there so I stayed for a long time. In time it got boring and I had gotten used to being a Poupee Elite (this basically happens when you have a lot of old and expensive items, a cute closet rating of over 5 and are very rich in ribbons and jewels), it was hard to see how I could leave my little Japanese doll world (we had our own blog too, I hosted a dress up game =w= ), but the site went dead around April and then I remembered about the Old Republic. Being friendless in general, I had nothing left to lose from this venture  and gave it a try, Ord Mantell, I will never forget the moment Skaavac took off with my ship lol

I was intrigued that my character had a personality so close to mine lol
and that's how I formed a bond with Miss Gerai Loversoul lol
I never played an mmo like this one before, and for someone starting out like me, it was easy to manuvere, had a great community, I mean people were nice to me left and right, which is why I'm sickened by so many mean people I see on the noob planets, like seriously? You never been new before? Sighs///

anyways, It took me three days to get off Ord Mantell lol
this is why: I was trying to find a delta link beta or something, anyways I haven't yet learned how to use my map, so I was just running around Ord Mantell killing things asking people, until finally someone told me to look in my map, so I did and the mission objective wasnt even in the village I was at, but it looked similar, so i checked online  and it lead me to a youtube video, and yeah, i was at the wrong place lol So I had to run back to the beginning and finally got my mission objective lol i was so happy ;w;
 Even the inbox confused me, I was like "why are all these people running the mail box if they new?" I guess they were legacies now, looking back on it, and its kinda cool to make a new char now and run up to the mailbox and have 4 mails waiting for me ;u;

Fleet was a whole thing all together, it was huge when I look back on it, but now it's just like 'meh'
there are still a lot of things I'm learning about my class that i had no clue about when I joined, it took me a while to even know what an intercom or holoterminal on my ship was until the i made the Jedi toon because Jedi's love their holoterminals.


I think the advanced class was one of the easiest decisions I had to make in regard to my other toons and this is why: I don't buy the smugglers are some hardcore old western pistol bearing sharp shooters, it's just....out of character? I mean, okay look at Han Solo the original smuggler, that guy was a bit sleazy, underhanded, had an ego the size of my fist, and was extremely cunning, a bit of a screw up maybe, but this guy could never be a top notch sharp shooter. He improvised and used the little talents he had, all while retaining a suave appearance, he rolled with a wookie~! What kind of person is that? I love Wookies, but they be dangerous, you think a classy sharp shooting genius would roll with a wookie~!!? Perhaps a droid, but certainly not a wookie, that takes some kinda of risky lifestyle, and who knows how Chewy got to work with him, he could have saved him or some nonesense. Anyways, rant over//  I picked scoundrel because the original smuggler was indeed the original "scoundrel" and I think it might be one of the best classes, though people give scoundrels a bad rep, I have no idea why.
You get to heal, implement decent amount of damage, go stealth, stealth your friends, you get to cc, and I found out that a good geared healing spec scoundrel can tank, oh yeah, this is like gaia aggro tanking which  I haven't seen anyone use in this game, but it's basically what I have to do when there is no tank in the group, having the greatest threat, idk why, but it happens, I end up healing myself until everyone else int he group has killed the mob. There is also a legend of a dirty fighting spec scoundrel being a tank, which I cannot fathom but I heard about it during the Gree event, and it intrigued me lol

Anyways, I'll be chronocling my amazing adventures here, not just  Gerai, but my other toons as well, but we can meet them properly some other day.

**I aint afraid to kill a sith, or two , or three muahahaha**

 Hmm this is getting kinda long so we'll stop here for now :3

thanks for reading