//Burn.

I have been  away from SWTOR for a few days.
Honestly, I'm running through a burn of the game, and cannot even bring myself to be on for more than a few minutes.
Something is eating at me, and I think it's that feeling I had of running cross country like Forest Gump, I don't like routine sometimes, though I'm complacent to live through it like a robot on autopilot, and before I know it I begin to twitch and ache and hate it.

I love this game but sometimes I need to return to the real world and live my life.

I am not like a lot of people, I am shy, and reclusive, and hate to be in places I do not feel comfortable.

In anycase, Tomorrow's (Today?) is Thanksgiving Day, AKA Turkey Day, AKA Pre-Black Friday, AKA Dysfunctional Family Feast Day.

I've spent all day baking, it's my bit of the feast to provide: Meaty Turnovers, Carrot Cake cupcakes, a spaghetti casserole, and a pumpkin pie graciously provided by Costco and the good people of Paypal, which in other words means I'm buying at Costco with my Paypal card because baking one at this point in time would undoubtedly drive me insane.

I'm also going to be bracing the crowds of the Thurdays Pre-Back friday sales, I kind of hate myself for it, but I really need a new lap top, and my sister is working so I'm getting her a few things as well, We didn't go the last two years so I don't entirely feel sleazy over it. I'm more worried about my leg though, I saw the doctor he thinks I might have a hair fraction if its in the middle of my joint/bone, he thinks it's a muscle tention but the way I described it he thinks is the hair fraction.  Getting an X-Ray before I head over to Mexico, Oh yeah, i'm going to Mexico, awesome.
I just hope we dont get out heads chopped off on our way there, because we will be taking  A LOT of stuff over, so Flying is out of the question. Lol Just imagining the bill for the boxs upon boxes of gifts gives me goosebumps lol.

Anyways, I love our road trips I just hate that it's just gonna be me, my brother and sister will be here, and I will be over there, kinda of alone because I never really connected with any of my cousins, I'm 100% weird to all of them, so I will probably be on swtor less anyways, lots of loud parties and lots of beer, I don't like beer though, so I will be taking reading material.

I'll probably be taking this Lappy though, in case we are robbed or whatever, my new one will stay here safely here.

Sighs.... I feel so bad about shopping tomorrow, but really, I kinda need it, sorry people, but this one has made plans, too late to back out now.



In Swtor related news,
I want to lead more operations, it's kinda fun bossing people around //muahahaha//
I just wish I was a better player, maybe my lag problems will go away with better lappy, or maybe it will be a bigger nightmare, idk yet.

I'm focusing on finishing my Shadow, but god, it's boring lol
I need to lvl up by 4 to finish my first chapter, sighs....I wish I could go into the game to make it go faster but the laaaaaaaaaaaaaaag lol

ughhhhh God help me.

oh im sorry, maybe the force be with me//lol

Anyways yeah, also been kinda lonely, hmmm, I need to make more friends in game, really hate running everything alone.

Objective: Dread Palace End/ Dread Fortress.